Parvati Pharswan

Late night thoughts : 15th November

There is something weird feeling in my mind currently running on , dont know whether i will fall in love again , whether the person i loved back in life will be able to understand me and my emotions, but the fact currently is i am holding something, whether my emotions , my grudge , anger towards him or something which is literally stopping me to fall in love again . I try hell to be completely fine , normal, pretending that everything is okay but somehow i again feel something is missing in my life , brain, heart i dont that is my past , or any kind of my own deeds but this really seems to be very much heartbreaking and saddest one !

I really hope i also have a normal life others specially like my specially where they think about themselves, and their both the families . Offcourse i also crave fir such love abd affection and this every uuman being deserves and needs!

Hopefully i will have a beautiful life yet again everyone my friends , my cousins , the one who was with me all are settled! Hope the same will fall for me !

#jaibholenath🙏

Ratgaon : A beautiful destination Camping

Ratgaon falls in Chamoli district situated in Uttarakhand state, with a population 839.

1:Dayara Bugyal Trek :

This trek is superbly rewarding at any time of the year. The forests are splendid in spring, the meadows are an unbeatable green in summer, and they turn orange in autumn, with striking mountain views. The snowscape in winter is a world on its own.

The meadows are so meticulously landscaped that there isn’t a single rock or tree out of place.”

think people have got it all wrong about the views. They talk only about the meadows. It is the mountain views from Dayara that are the stunner.

The biodiversity is high. Which is why you’ll hear a lot of bird calls. While we talk about the meadows, don’t miss out on the forest. Dayara Bugyal is one of the Best Himalayan treks for Bird Watching.

2:Brahmatal Trek :

The trek can be started from Ratgaon and also from Lohajung to Bhekal tal passes through dense forest & Bhekal Tal to Brahmatal route passes through open meadows, which offers to behold views of Himalayan range peaks (Trishul, Nandaghunti) & both side valley with villages like Wan, Didina,, Bursol, Dungari etc. This trek is accessible around the year, in winter view of the white layer around the valley & another season lush green meadows & forest makes this trek very unique and special.

3:Bekal Tal Trek :

Bekal Tal is about 1.5 kms kilometers from Lohajung and in a way acts as the mid point of the Brahma Tal trek. Although experienced hikers can complete this trek in a day if they say, but spending a night in Bekal Tal has its own unique charm, so everyone plans a two-day trek for this trek.

The trek to Bekal Tal is of moderate difficulty and the best time to do it is either during the snow in winter or when the snow starts melting in spring. The track is not particularly enjoyable in summers and rains. The Bekal Tal track also has the confluence of the Kali and Pindari rivers. This track route actually comes under Kali Ghati. About 300 meters before coming to Bekal Tal, there is a small lake called Khopdaliya which has a good camping place. Most of the hikers pitch their tents at Khopdalia lake itself.

4:Roopkund Trek :

The Roopkund Trek is the most popular trek of Uttarakhand.

Roopkund is a lake at an altitude of 16,156 feet in Uttarakhand, it is also known as “Mystery Lake”The lake is situated at an altitude of 4,800 meters and is surrounded by snow-capped mountains. The lake is also known as the Skeleton Lake because of the human skeletons that can be seen at the bottom of the lake.

One can gaze at thebreath-taking views of the two massive alpine meadows of Ali Bugyal and Bedni Bugyal, which almost feels surreal to look at. You can also see the Neel kanth peak, Kedarnath, Chaukhamba range, Kedar Dome and many other gigantic mountains and meadows on your trail to theRoopkund trek.

Roopkund lake ( Skeleton Lake )

Never ever listen to the words of a person : Believe in Action

Never ever listen to the word of a person , instead of that believe in actions we always fall for those people, who just speak, and are over expressive , we feel that person if that point of time he is making us feel good , he is the best one .

Instead of that try to understand his last relationship, his hidden traumas , his issues and how he deals with it ! And this time I haven’t did it and Offcourse I am facing the same … I think we are solely responsible for our own actions and I do owe it to!

Never ever play , with anyone’s emotions for the pleasure , for good physical appearance.

It’s hard for a person who invested on you and has , given ur body and soul to you after that all meetings and all small Momments !!

Life is unpredictable it might come to you in another ways !!

What made you smile today ?

We all are human beings , we struggle with everyday emotions , we fight an internal battle within ourselves , we feel ignored , unloved , cheated , heartbroken, but that’s okay we are humans we have all rights and have all emotions that’s why we are humans !But the happiest Momments are for me when I am there for anyone who needed me irrespective of whether i have received anything in return I always believe in giving nature . I try my level best to help , considering that’s my problem the happiest moment for me today when I was successful to help my brother to get the desired job which he was struggling from Long time The offer letter he received this morning made me smile forgetting all the pain and issues I had !

. Although there were my own tensions in my life going on the worst days of life but keeping in mind that , good deeds will always be considered , I feel karma has it own way whatever you have done will return it you in a beautiful way , I believe in kindness , emotions love , I believe it’s high time we need to be gratitude to what we have and always help each other , help raising each other , never hurt anyone emotions never play with anyone emotions ! If you are not able to do so please just don’t take it for granted .

Smile is very precious thing , it’s a beautiful gift which we should maintain on our face and always help spreading it .

Dealing Menatal Illness

Life humbles you , You grow old , you analyse things , you understand love is not everything, and only the one thing , even though you try everything for your partner there will still be something lack behind , and you will forever not understand that what is that something.

I have been experienced enough to understand every level of people to be very frank ,be it introvert guy , extrovert , ambitious. The core thing which I realised which is important though in every relationship and for me is : To take stand to be there not mentally, but your presence should include the focus and determination in the relationship that you are willing to take it forward .I have done several mistakes in my past and still doing , I fall everyday and rise in the hope that next day is gonna be beautiful, and I know it will be I have invested a lot in every relationship, with just one expectation just be there in my decisions , may expectation itself is a wrong word , if you love someone , but when u deeply give yourself everything to someone you feel that atleast the courage to stand for my all highs and lows should be appreciated.

But this generation is so fucked up ! We don’t understand the value of love including me , we feel if we don’t have no problem then we can easily move on . Comeon you can buy the circumstances will be really bad , it’s unhealed wounds , experiences which will hamper the next relationship for sure .

Communicate , communicate what eve is bothering you , and most important don’t make false promises , if u can’t do it please stay it upfront don’t give any false hopes , it takes a lot of time for a broken heart to trust someone, sometimes it impacts mentally that much that u need a psychiatric to deal which is not bad though .

Still I will suggest which I learnt from my younger siblings who are in 98’s born and which is not bad though to understand what’s getting bad with this generation.everyone to be strong enough to first prioritise yourself , keep a distance , don’t discuss everything your past , Untill u are not sure we not sure what is their mindset, how they portrait you in their mind when they listen you story .

Keep distance a healthy one so if you fight or any argument happens , you are strong itself to de instead of getting more anxiety and more intolerant.

It’s not hard to, even I feel let’s try altogether ❤️🧿

Stop chasing Perfectionism!

We all human beings are inherently taught to chase perfection in every aspects of our life , being a daughter I remember in my childhood days when I started learning I used to get scoldings to make round chapatis, even though I try best , in school even though secure good rank , my parents were always complaining to be the best version . And in the race of being best I never understood what I wanted I my life , I started having fear within myself what if I won’t score good , what if I won’t perform well on stage , I knew I can perform , I liked always being on stage , but later I started having that fear even though I knew I can do it . This continued in my for long untill I realised the Deep meaning of perfection!! And why it’s required to be perfect why progress in enough , because this way we will have the hunger to work everyday on our goals , failures everyday we will feel is a challenge , we can work , we can learn , we can overcome our fear , we can feel the enthusiasm within ourselves , I don’t say perfectionism is bad even though if we chase it we can get excellence. But at the end of the day what all matters if your efforts !! Your dedication because if u feel you are doing good , trying best one day your go results will be there . But if u will start running for perfectionism you will stop that desire of “trying “ within your self and then it’s the end game . So please stop running being perfect no one started building empire directly coming out from mother’s womb Offcourse it takes lots of sacrifice , willpower , dedication . And that’s only is required and it’s truely beautiful 😍

Gratitude -For a New start

People do often say, seasons change , time flies , people do come into your life some come to give you happiness , some to teach lessons , so I met this guy after covid post covid 2nd wave which was the deadliest one ! I remember after my birthday 24th May 2022 approx one year before , we were already connected prior for1-2 sessions regarding fitness , but somehow I remembered and just gathered courage to say him hello in Instagram , by finding his profile via some of our mutual connections .

I meant May be it was supposed to happen , as out of blue I thought to message him hi and then deleted also expecting it would look like creepy , as a trainer has lots of students and being in cult as I joined recently and I liked the environment compared to other gym made me to just think a lot a lot which I generally do always (an overthinker) . But his humbleness behaviour turned me on and he replied later on Instagram hi , and then we recalled the classes time and had few conversations about fitness and stuff . This was we started our interaction and meeting. This was all normal , average I was quite confident, that’s okay people are friends and being an extrovert person it’s okay for me to connect to people . But later after having good connect and understanding, or attraction liking whatever we call he started having feelings for me and expressed very beautifully, and also didn’t imposes those things on me as I was going through a tough time already and used to be low mostly . So I used to be the only who will be a speaker the other one will be a listener , being so patient he never forced me to have feelings for me , gather it or anything he used to inspire me in any particular sport , Activity.

I remember being confident, smart , bold , I still had the hesitation, shyness to try something new being changing new gym wears , trying a new sport , or any new activity but the kind of courage I used to have it it was immensable. And I never asked anything apart from that knowing the fact , he is younger to me , don’t have enough knowledge on my field or job , still the golden things I get from him related to my life , my routine makes him more special, and that’s the gratitude I have post covid till now .

No matter how far I go , I become successful, if you are not able to control your emotions , ego , anger , you are still weak , stubborn , He is the one who highlighted and always taught me to work on it , never ever gave up one till now , I have people asking me what’s so special about him, I see everything special about him, He treats me like a queen, he gives me utmost respect not because I am elder but also he knows the values , he has those in his culture . I am the one who insists him for being discipline, focussed but I always forget being nice , grateful , kind is also a major aspect in life to be beautiful in and out .

I have several things to write and appreciate , but to cut it down I would say one line only ! People like him are very generous and I am very lucky and grateful to have you in my life !

Much Love ❤️

Things that makes me happy

List 30 things that make you happy.

Things that make me happy :

1: consistency

2: Discipline

3: goal oriented person

4 :Hard working

5: Proactive

6: self loving

7: Kind

8: loving

9: caring

10 : Challenge himself

11 : opportunist

12: having winner qualities

13 : Dream chaser

14: family oriented

15: strong mindset

16: fitness freak

17 : flexible

18: Trust

19: self confidence

20: creative

21: Beautiful

22 : bolder

23: sensitive

24 : visionary

25 : Transparent

26: smart

27 : intelligent

28: calculative

29: competitive

30: positive mindset

Negativity Bias and Trauma

This topic , we hear nowadays emerging in every generation and is impacting their own personal and mental well being . We should never be ashamed of sharing and having a discussion on this .

This is actually a stage when we have our own any past trauma in our life which isn’t cured , resolved and impacts our daily routine and lifecycle . We must have heard from our closed ones , friends just to forget thing, stay calm but it’s never easy to let go things and forget them where you have contributed emotionally and socially . We all know that we get attracted much / pay attention to negative comments , outcomes , experiences even we have received ample number of positivity, appreciations , and love. still our heart , brain focus on the negative impacts or the comments why ?

Because we still struggle to find out the answer why it happened, and if it was supposed to happen why I missed such instances at a very first place . See experiences will be bitter be it career like you are being positive and very sure about promotion and something unexpected happened and , you lost the name in list even you were sure you are the deserving one. In life again parents again you provide your utmost support and love to them still they feel and compare you it with society, or your own family . Then comes in relationships where you feel completely safe , as your own then you realise it never happens like this it needs to be mutually dealt both ways . Friendships where you feel that you are there to support in highs and lows and cut out ego’s and what happens a small miscommunication, and a small bitter experience ends it up.

This could be the main outcome of Rage , ego coming towards us which we even can’t stop we try but our own ego stops this . So how this should be dealt ?

Any past trauma can’t be healed quickly it takes ages , years , and sometimes never ! for emotionally strong person it becomes more tough because he made himself already by the time he never expected something unexpected would turn this up. So at this point of times the people who are close to you , loved ones , family they need to be your support , they needs to understand they need to eliminate such things from the atmosphere around you which haunts you , creates disturbances in your life .if they genuinely feel healing can happen . It’s a two way effort I know it definitely needs to be actioned by you , but there are things where your daily activities rely upon the other person so you need to be there to support her and understand this stage to have a beautiful relationship.

The focus should be only on team support rather being indulged in physical activities , having good diet , these are important and a must but , this bond which you share with one person in family or in your life this needs to be handled properly to have a long lasting bond and welcoming all the positivity and appreciations in life 🩷😊

Relationship : before commitment and after .

Relationship is itself a big word , it’s a connection between two souls be it physical , positive negative .so this is a beautiful phase in the beginning when they don’t have any kinds of interference because it’s the most Lubby dubby one .people like each other involvement give most of the time to each other and then make sure they both are completely comfortable to each other .

But then comes a phase where they need to take it forward and that involves a big word commitment, so they need to reach to a conclusion where they need to give a certain name to a relationship and since they are sure that they like each other’s company so they do enter into the phase of commitment. Which eventually looks very much beautiful but then slowly their comes a time when opposite gender , be it anyone tries to create differences by taking his own space or expecting his own space while he had forgotten when he was trying to be so so much attached when there was average intimacy and all kinds of involvement but now the person has considered you your everything he needs his own space out of blue, the opposite person tries to see the flaws , see the future with him and points things which are expected to be both ways to be with each other , but then it’s being considered bossy or ruling my own life . And also said the problem always arise from only one end . The other partner Off-course can me wrong , also can have certain flaws which needs to be corrected but then it’s being give a name as a boundation to their freedom. This starts creating the difference as when the efforts are not being matched from both end .

Certain times certain things are highlighted to retain and let it work but it’s always again highlighted that let me live my own life , okay accepted where was ur life when you were so much involved in each other where were your priorities, where was your own space that you feel you need now . So it’s the best thing if you need this casual approach please be clear it from the beginning and don’t just run behind her to drain her emotionally for commitment . Because if you don’t know the meaning and you are not able to do so, if you are keep her priority, and that way you can settle up things and plan future . Present is only based on future so if you are not making you present beautiful how you can expect future to be .

Think before you jump in , because for you that person is everything which is not wrong again , which is her choice and Off-course not your mistake too , but that’s how she defines her priorities and love .

Respect her priorities and just take stand for her before it’s too late and you regret the same .